At the end of 2005 i asked members of the 100%BOY forum to ask me any questions to help me writing this 'interview'
WHAT WOULD YOU TO CONSIDER THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN YOUR LIFE:
*The most important thing in my life is to feel loved and to love. Love makes the world go round...
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST REGRET:
* I do regret some things, but i also believe that it's a waste of energy to have regrets, because something did happen and it is impossible to turn back time! The thing i try to do is to learn from these moments and try to do it differently next time. But if i have to choose one: i was at Boy George's party when i was in London and i regret that i didn't go right to him when i saw him to congratulate him with his new book STRAIGHT and to thank him for inviting me. And i kind of always regretted the fact that i 'came out of the closet'/shared with the world that i was GAY late (i was 21 years old), i would have loved to experiment more with boys....
DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT:
*YES! I have experienced it myself a couple of times. I can look into someone's eyes and my heart beats faster! Then i know there is something going on. Love at first sight is not a guarantee that the love is for life! And you knever know what life has planned for you...
ARE YOU IN LOVE CURRENTLY:
*Yes, i am deeply in love with my boyfriend. I met him almost 6 years ago and although i do believe that there are more then one 'lovers of my life', i do feel that HE IS THE ONE. He is the one that crossed my path, when i was wondering around in the deep, dark forest, feeling lonely.
WHAT IS A LAZY DAY LIKE ACCORDING TO YOU:
*A lazy day for me is to wear my pyama all day, watch a DVD, spend some time on the internet, a day when no one expects anything from me. Just do what I want to do!
WHAT IS YOUR MAKE-UP ALL ABOUT:
*Make-up for me is about transformation. Creating a mask, some friends tell me that i am a different person when i wear make-up. I really like standing in the front of the morror for two hours and see how my face changes. I don't think it is about hiding, it's not easy to hide when i am dressed up. It's more about expressing myself, showing my creativity, getting attention, having the feeling of being someone else.
ARE YOU HAPPY WITH WHERE YOU LIVE AND TO EXPRESS YOUR ART, WOULD YOU LIKE TO MOVE AND IF SO, WHERE TO:
*A part of me is happy with where i live, because most of my friends live here, me and my boyfriend have our house here and my job is 7minutes away from my house. The other part is not happy, because i miss a gang of creative people living nearby me. In the town where i live, i think i am almost the only one who likes to dress up. Sometimes that is a good thing (because i am the only one, i do get a lot of attention), but i would love to have a group of people who would join me in my creative flow. Spend the evening together in a house preparing ourselves to go out and make this world a more interesting place to be. I have this mind filled with creative thoughts and i find it very hard to find the right people to share it with. If i had the opportunity (in a different life), i would love to move to London or Amsterdam or maybe Berlin. I think there is much more happening over there.
WHAT DO YOU SAY TO PEOPLE WHO DON'T LIKE THE WAY YOU LOOK/DRESS:
*Not much hahaha.. it also depends on how they confront me. Some people get really aggresive and i am not an aggresive person. Most of the time i just smile and ignore the nasty ones. If they get reallly nasty, like spitting or punching, then i call for the nice big boys: SECURITY!!!!
HOW DO YOU DRESS CASUALLY:
*When i am the other me, i wear jeans, t-shirts, armyboots. When i was younger i used to wear a lot of black clothes, i now feel the urge to go back to those days... I love black!
WHAT ARE YOUR FUTURE AMBITIONS AND CURRENT PROJECTS YOU ARE WORKING ON:
*I would love to DJ more often and to do something with my make-up, but what? Years ago, i DJ'd a lot, but because i moved to another city i had to stop. I would also love to write a book, put my old diary stories into a book. At the moment i am trying to DJ at the Ponyclub in Rotterdam. But as there are many DJ's around, it's very hard to find a free DJ space... I also started translating my diary into English, but i stopped doing that.. I think i will rewrite it in Dutch first and when it is finished i will translate it into English. I almost never take an easy road. Sometimes i put make-up on other people's faces, but i prefer to do it to myself. It is strange that i only have ambitions with my 'hobby's and not with my daily work.
FAVOURITE COLOGNE/PERFUME:
*I love BIOTHERM-AQUAFITNESS, but then don't sell that anymore, now i use a cologne from ZARA.
WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH A MILLION EURO'S:
*I would buy a really nice house for the boyfriend and the cat and myself. I would buy or rent a nice room for myself at HomeHouse in London. Give some money to my parents and my sister. I would stop working. I would put most of the money in a good bankaccount or shares...
TEA OR COFFEE:
*I prefer a cup of tea, but when i am really tired and i still have a long, long day to go, then i drink a cup of coffee to wake me up and to keep myself going.
WHO WAS YOUR HERE/ROLEMODEL, WHILE GROWING UP AND HOW DID THAT PERSON SHAPE YOU:
* The first rolemodels were my parents and they did their best to give me a good childhood and they did. Another person that changed my life was (and still is) the singer Boy George. When i saw him for the first time on tv, i smiled and cried at the same time, because for the first time i didn't feel alone anymore. I always believed that i was to only boy who felt attracted to other boys and was interested in different things. I was about 11 years old when i say Boy George in the video from 'Do you really want to hurt me', i wanted to be like him! And i felt like i found a 'soulmate'. So in a way George helped me with accepting myself. I also admire him for doing so many things and having so many talents. I also try to do many things at the same time, but i always fail to finsh it. I have to try to do less things and concentrate more on finishing one thing, before starting with another new thing.
HOW DO YOU LIKE TO RELAX/UNWIND:
*The best thing for me to do is to put candles on and all the other lamps off, burn insence (NAGCHAMPA), listen to buddhalounge or other relaxation music. Put a nice warm blanket on the ground and just lay down, close my eyes and just listen and empty my mind.....Sometimes a good, long walk around the forest can also be good to clear my mind and to relax.
WHO OR WHAT DO YOU CONSULT WHEN MAKING IMPORTANT LIFE DECISIONS. ARE YOU SECURE OF SPIRITUAL IN YOUR THINKING?
*I think i am a spiritual person in a way that i think that some things happen to me for a reason, nothing happens without a reason. Sometimes the reason may not seem clear to me at the time, but sometimes days later i realize why it happened. Most of the time i consult my boyfriend for his oppinion and sometimes my parents or a close friend. Most of the time i end up doing what i wanted to do in the first place, the first iimpulse is always the right one to do. I am a very implusive person, although i am also a real thinker, it's a strange combination. Sometimes i lay the cards and ask them a question, but i always experience that i already knew the answers myself....
DO YOU THINK THAT YOUR HOMOSEXUALITY MADE YOUR LIFE MORE EASY OR DIFFICULT AND WHY:
*Until the age of 20 it made life very difficult for me, because i tried to hide it from the world and it was hard living in 'the closet'. I had sex with other guys, but i stayed in my 'safe' closet. I wanted to share it with my parents, my sister and my close friends, but i was too scared that they would reject me. Around 1991 i met a guy and started a relationship with him and that was the point where i could share IT with the rest of the world. Everybody responded in a positive way. At that point it really didn't matter to me if people would be negative about it, i felt so strong then. I also tried girls for a while, but i could only just kiss and hug, that was al i was interested in with girls, that was the limit! I don't know if it makes life more easy or not. I do have the feeling that the world is getting less tollerant. I don't walk hand in hand with my boyfriend anymore, because there are a lot of stories of gaymen beaten up because of doing that. I don't lile to live in a world of fear and i don't feel that free anymore. On the other hand, it's now possible for gay people to get married and that would be something i would like to do, just because i am a romantic person and not because i want to be like a hetrosexual.
WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST CHILD MEMORY:
*My earliest memory is the sound of a toy, a car. I have a photo, i was 3 years old, and everytime i see that picture i hear the sound of the weels spinning.
THANX TO EVERYONE FOR ASKING ME THESE QUESTIONS, MAYBE I DID NOT ANSWER THEM ALL, BUT HEY, I AM NOT MISTER PERFECT, I AM JUST SVEN.STRANGE XXX LOVE.